Dear Anonymous

I'm sure I've written a post like this before.
I know I've watched various Youtube videos where people read their letters to unnamed people.
I decided I wanted to write this post again.
A few letters to different people, only I will know who they are aimed at.
I feel like I need to get some stuff off of my chest, and this is the perfect way to do it.
6 people, 6 anonymous letters.

 Dear #1,
I love you with all my heart.
You are the kindest person I know, but that isn't always a good thing.
I truely believe there is such a thing as being too kind, and you #1 can be too kind.
I know you try so hard to please everyone but it just doesn't happen, it's impossible.
I know how much you do for me, and for everyone and I appreciate that so much.
But it does feel like you are always putting less important things first, rather than when people truely need you. 
Need to talk to you, need you to be there, need you to listen but you can't.
You have far too much going on in that head of yours, worried about making someone upset, 
worrying about everything, worrying about worrying.
I know you are a worrier, and that is just who you are, but it does feel like you don't always have your priorities straight. 
You are an amazing person, but you need to stand up for what you want more.
Do what you want, rather than worrying about pleasing everybody else.
I truely believe you have your priorities backwards, the people who should come first, rarely do.
I don't want this to seem like I'm just having a go at you because I'm not.
I love you, I would do anything for you.
I just don't always feel like that feeling is mutual.

Dear #2
You make me cry.
Let me rephrase that, you have made me cry.
I tried so hard to be the best person I could be around you.
A good friend to you, and it has always felt like that has just gone unnoticed.
Cheered you up when you were down, talked to you in the middle of the night, 
when you felt you didn't have anyone. You had me. But you didn't notice.
Not to toot my own horn, but if anyone gave me, what I gave to you, I'd show a little more appreciation.
I'm not sure if it's just the way you are, but it honestly upset me.
You weren't there when I wanted you to be the most.

Dear #3
My favourite grown up in the world.
We just get each other in every way.
When people hear about the way our relationship works, the way we work, they might judge. 
Frown upon us, whatever. It's perfect the way it is. It's perfect for us.
The same taste in movies, the same sense of humour, the same ethics.
I can't believe how long we've known each other, and I feel we have both changed in that time, 
but in the best way. Our lives entwined together, growing together.
We have our own hobbies, our own ideas, our own space and that's the way it should be.
I love you.
My favourite.

Dear #4 
You are an amazing person. 
I'd never tell you but before I met you I felt intimidated by you.
You were so much cooler than me, so much more awesome than I was.
But the truth is, after getting to know you, I had no reason to be intimidated.
You are the kindest, warmest person. I've never felt judged by you, never felt you weren't there if I needed you. 
I hope you feel the same about me. I am always here.
Our lives may be crazy busy, just getting by, but you're always there. 
Waiting to help, cheer me up, try to ensure I live life to the fullest. I totally appreciate it.
You've done so much for me recently, more than anyone.
I couldn't have done it without you.
You did everything, and you did it without moaning, or even without me asking.
You did more than anyone else did.
I would do anything for you.
You are the best. Writing this is making me cry, because you're going away.
But I wan't you to know, I'm always here.
I hope our friendship doesn't fade away. 

Dear #5
I am jealous of you.
Not just mum jealousy, but jealous of everything.
Your look, your life, your attitude.
You are freaking awesome.
I feel like we would get on so well in real life, as opposed to online.
But I'm shy, and I think you probably think i'm a loser. Haha.
You seem too nice to think bad things about anyone though to be honest.

Dear #6,
This is a weird one.
I'm not writing a letter to a loved one, or a friend, but more like a past acquaintance. 
We used to know each other, like 10 years ago.
I say knew each other, but it was more like you thought I was this person and I thought you were this person. 
We didn't like each other. Or at the very least, we were forced to not like each other.
It was one of those relationships that we secretly hoped would never resurface, when it was done it was done. 
We would be perfectly happy if we never bumped into each other again.
The weirdest thing about the relationship is that we have bumped into each other again, and it's like a different life. 
I don't even know if you remember who I am, I wasn't really very memorable back then to be honest! 
But you speak to me like we are friends, like you are the nicest person in the world and will talk to anybody. 
But I don't know whether I believe it. Sometimes it feels like an act. But hey, I don't know you.
You might have changed, grown up, moved on.
But it feels so odd, because you used to be so cruel to me, like I won't forget it.
And now, you're nice to me.
Do you remember me at all?

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