and I was beginning to adjust to life as a mother,
I began thinking..
'When will I feel like me again'?
Going for days not getting dressed, barely having enough time to shower let alone put on make up, cook meals or go out. It seems like you'll never find yourself again,
you'll never get back to who you once were.
The one thing no one tells you when you have a baby, is you will feel like you'll have no idea if what you are doing is right. 'Is this what I should be doing? Is this normal?'
The early days are draining, exhausting, you have no time for yourself, and you are so distracted you don't really even have the time to
think about the fact you don't have the time for yourself!
Then gradually you start getting back into a routine, baby sleeps and wakes at regular times (hopefully), so you can plan your day around that. You know when you can have a shower, when you have 5-10 minutes to look presentable and after a while you even have your evenings back.
This all happened to me, and it absolutely happened again
the second time around.
It hit me a little while back, that I am myself again. I am me.
Just not the same me I used to be.
In all honesty, you will never be the old 'you' again.
When you become a mother, you will lose part of yourself, and I can guarantee you will not be able to do some of the things you used to do.
You will never be the Old You again.
And that is awesome.
Becoming a mother transforms you.
The experience will completely change you in ways you could never imagine,